No wayyyyy. BTW I just bought my bus ticket for 11/11 at 7:45 AM. It’s a Thurs. I don’t think you have school cause its veterans day. Idk. But YEAHHHHH. We go to disney that weekend and I’m so excitedddd<3333
FGCU just sent me my refund of $1,087.28. wowowowowowoow. im fucking exciteddddd. that means a MUCH NEEDED/EARNED vacation is near <3
really excited to finally start taking care of myself. & seeing the outcome <3
i hate venting on tumblr, i hate putting things on blast.. shit i hate letting anything out at all. i just NEEED to let this out like its just killing me.. tearing me apart and it hasn’t stopped since i moved up here. i feel like i’ve just gotten worse at showing people i love how much i love them & how much they mean to me. i’ve always pushed people away.. my entire life.. people that i’ve gotten so close to.. just gone. & like i feel like since i don’t see my sister everyday i’m not showing her how much i really care or love her. i think out of anyone in the world my sister and i have the most tightest bond just because she’s a different form of me. and i hate that i’ve left her & that i don’t see her. and i feel like i’ll always resent myself for it. but i love her to death. and no one will understand me like she does & vice versa. her and my mom are the closest thing to family that i have. a lot of people give themselves titles.. but they don’t mean shit till you earn them.
possibly a devil.. i’m not really sure yet. you?
:’( i fucking hate you.